Monday, 16 April 2018

Which Direction Do I Take Next?


I write this post from my soft office (aka, my bed), in my Toy Story pyjamas with an episode of friends on in the background and if I'm honest, I'm feeling pretty flat and I don't know which direction to take next. There are quite a few factors that are contributing to this and I know that only I can make things better. I feel a bit stuck, de-motivated and without a plan for the future. If you're feeling similar then I'm here to tell you, you are not alone.

If you've been following me for a while now, you will know that Ambambe.com has existed for a few years. A blogging schedule has never existed and I found blogging when the mood struck worked for me. Until now. I would love to make a career out of my creative work and not just consider it as a hobby. This year I have gone part time so that I have more time to concentrate on my creative work and try and find something that really works for me and makes me want to jump out of bed in the morning. I have always been a creative person and would love to work part time and have my creative work keep me ticking over, maybe even one day, blog or come up with an amazing idea that'll mean I can work for myself full time. That's the dream that many of us want, but in my head I don't want it to be a dream, it's a goal and I am willing to work hard to make it happen.

Uni wasn't for me, or maybe that's because the pressure was on to study an 'academic subject' rather than a creative one. This might be why it didn't work out and I really wish I played to my strengths more and realised what I was good at when I was younger. Instead I was very confused and let people pull me this way and that without grounding myself and thinking about what I really wanted. Shoulda, woulda, coulda, am I right?

I have recently started to explore my options. I've tapped into YouTube, a second food related blog and illustrations, I started writing a book months back and am considering a cook book for the future. But should I be sticking to just one idea?! Should I pursue one project, smash that and move on to the next or do I juggle them all? The trouble is, it's hard to know which basket to put all your eggs in and know what is going to be successful isn't it? This is what's making me feel flat and de-motivated. I just don't know where to go next. The key to me is to keep going, find a routine that works for me and stick to a schedule. So over the coming months, I will be finding that, implementing it and sticking to it.

Improving my home life will also help. I want to get a handle on my life rather than let it just consume me with things like running the house by keeping on top of the cleaning, washing and cooking. I want to exercise more and stop being so lazy and making excuses and I just want to be the best that I can be. Being an adult and having responsibilities is hard, we all struggle and let things pile up but now it's time to tackle that pile. Not everything we see on social media is at it seems, we are all guilty of showing 'the best bits' but I want to get more real.

I know this has been a bit of an unusual post compared to what I usually write about but I think it's important to tell you all where I'm at and what I have planned for the future. I am at a crossroads and I don't know which route to take but I know I'll get there in the end. I'm hoping that writing this post, being honest with not only you as readers of my blog but also with myself, will help ground me and encourage me sort my shit out. I already feel a million times better for writing this and I hope you will offer your insight/thoughts/feelings too if you're feeling the same or have felt similar in the past.

Thanks for sticking with me and reading my ramblings. Would love to know your thoughts and if you ever need someone to chat to, my inbox is always open on social media. We got this.

Love Amber x 
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2 comments

  1. Never settle, do what makes your heart sing the most, and if you want to make it a career figure out what works for you and go for it! I spent 8 years stuck thinking of what I wanted then thinking it was hard or unachievable. I'm now 100% on the right path. You gotta fight and find what is right for you! :)

    Erin || MakeErinOver

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  2. "Now it's time to tackle that pile" resonated with me so much. I've been feeling really overwhelmed recently, and you're so right- adulting is hard work! And I believe if you want something and you work hard for it, eventually you'll get it! You've got this!

    Lauren x
    The Curious Ginger

    http://www.thecuriousginger.co.uk/

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